Capítulo 4
The Fateful Journey: From Small Town to Global Stage
At nineteen, after completing secondary school, Maria begins working at a draper's shop. Her professional capabilities and interpersonal skills help her secure favorable working conditions and compensation. For two years, she manages her finances carefully, supporting her family while saving for her dream vacation to Rio de Janeiro. When offered travel assistance, she politely declines, preferring to maintain her independence for this important personal journey.
After a lengthy bus journey, Maria arrives at a modest hotel in Copacabana. Eager to experience the beach, she changes into her swimwear and ventures out despite overcast conditions. Though hesitant, she approaches the ocean for the first time, experiencing a profound connection with the Atlantic waters and the cultural significance of Iemanja. This moment marks her initial encounter with the broader world she's long imagined-one full of possibilities beyond her familiar surroundings.
On this beach, a chance meeting occurs with a Swiss businessman who offers her refreshments and attempts conversation through a pocket dictionary. His limited Portuguese conveys compliments and mentions of professional opportunities in Switzerland. A hotel staff member vouches for similar successful arrangements, encouraging Maria to consider the proposal. Despite limited performance experience from community theater, she finds herself intrigued by this unexpected opportunity.
Believing this could be divine providence and seeking adventure, she accepts his dinner invitation. The businessman arranges for appropriate evening attire to be delivered to her hotel. Viewing this as a potential escape from provincial life, Maria prepares thoughtfully, though receiving cautionary advice from hotel staff.
During dinner, they communicate through photographs and gestures. Her informal advisor, Mailson, had mentioned potential earnings, but the businessman maintains professional decorum. The following day, she accepts a formal employment offer with Mailson as her representative, receiving an advance payment and proper documentation through official channels.
Maria's acceptance marks a defining moment in her story. She embraces uncertainty, motivated by a combination of professional ambition, intellectual curiosity, and desire for growth beyond her current circumstances. This universal experience resonates with anyone who has faced a life-changing decision-choosing between familiar security and unknown potential. Maria chooses advancement, embarking on a journey that will fundamentally transform her path forward.
Capítulo 5
Disillusionment in Geneva: The Reality Behind the Dream
Maria's arrival in Switzerland marks the beginning of her disillusionment. Her heart contracts with fear as she realizes her complete dependence on Roger, whose behavior has grown increasingly distant since their departure from Brazil. He installs her in a small hotel and introduces her to Vivian, another Brazilian woman who will prepare her for work. Vivian bluntly explains the reality of Maria's situation: Roger routinely recruits dancers from Brazil when others get married; Maria will earn barely a tenth of what was promised; the rest will pay for her flight and accommodation, taking nearly a year to clear; and the nightclub has strict rules against fraternizing with customers.
Rather than seeing herself as a victim, Maria chooses to view herself as "an adventurer in search of treasure." She puts aside her feelings, stops crying nightly, and pretends she's just been born to avoid missing anyone. The nightclub atmosphere reminds her of her Brazilian hometown-Portuguese-speaking women complaining about men and working conditions while dreaming of Prince Charming. Despite expecting excitement, she finds only sadness and boredom.
For two weeks, Maria barely leaves her boarding house, surprised to discover the language barrier and that the city has two names: Geneve to locals and Genebra to Brazilians. Eventually, she concludes she needs to learn French to express herself and find a way to differentiate herself from other women with similar ambitions. After four weeks, though living in the future rather than the present, Maria enrolls in a French course where she meets people of all backgrounds and feels proud when they recognize Brazilian culture, even if they insist on calling her "Marie."
In the afternoons, she explores the city, discovering delicious chocolate, cheese, snow, and restaurants with fireplaces. After three months of restraint, her "Brazilian blood" leads her into a brief romance with an Arab classmate from her French course, causing her to miss work and resulting in her dismissal from the nightclub.
When Roger fires Maria for setting a bad example, she cleverly mentions the word "lawyer," reminding him of Swiss employment laws regarding the nightclub's practice of withholding her salary. This strategic move earns her five thousand dollars in compensation-a sum beyond her wildest dreams. Suddenly free with unexpected wealth, she plans to spend time with her Arab lover before triumphantly returning home.
However, her plans collapse when her Arab boyfriend disappears, leaving Maria alone in a foreign country with money but no direction. This pattern of dashed hopes followed by pragmatic adaptation becomes characteristic of Maria's journey. Each disappointment forces her to reassess her situation and find a new path forward, gradually building her resilience and self-reliance. Isn't this how life often works? Our greatest growth often emerges from our deepest disappointments, as we're forced to discover strengths we never knew we possessed.
Capítulo 6
The Descent into Prostitution: A Calculated Choice
Finding herself alone after her Arab boyfriend's disappearance, Maria decides to pursue modeling with her looks. She spends money on professional photos, sends copies to her family to create the impression of success, and buys a mobile phone to await job offers. As time passes without calls, she battles depression, distracting herself by reading magazines and eventually visiting the library, where she forms a friendship with the librarian who introduces her to books like "The Little Prince."
Just as her money nearly runs out, Maria receives a call from a modeling agency about an Arab gentleman interested in her photos. During their meeting at an upscale restaurant, after discussions about art and cinema reveal her limited cultural knowledge, the man offers her a thousand francs to join him in his hotel room. This proposition forces Maria to confront reality, bringing tears as she reflects on her journey from innocence to this moment of decision. After crying in the restaurant, Maria accepts the offer, goes to his hotel, gets drunk on champagne, has emotionless sex with him, collects her payment, and returns home to sleep dreamlessly.
After deciding to pursue prostitution, Maria researches her new profession, visiting the library and buying pornographic magazines. She locates Rue de Berne, where the clubs are, and enters one called "Copacabana." There she meets the owner Milan and a Brazilian woman who explains the three rules: never fall in love with clients, always get paid upfront, and never use drugs. Milan explains the ritual-black underwear, fruit juice cocktails instead of alcohol, forty-five minute maximum with clients, and a fixed price of 350 francs per encounter, of which he takes 50.
Despite initially feeling embarrassed when approached by her first client, an airline employee, Maria goes through with it mechanically, feeling detached from herself, like an actress playing a role. After her first two clients, she walks home in a trance-like state, strangely proud she didn't run away. She resolves to be the best at her new profession, something she's never been before.
What's remarkable about Maria's descent into prostitution is that it's presented not as a tragedy but as a calculated choice-perhaps the first truly autonomous decision she's made since arriving in Switzerland. She approaches her new profession with the same pragmatic determination she's applied to other aspects of her life, researching it thoroughly and committing to excel. This doesn't romanticize or glamorize prostitution; rather, it acknowledges the agency that exists even within deeply constrained circumstances.
In her diary, Maria writes that she's "a soul with a visible part called the body." She notes that her soul has been watching her silently since she stopped thinking about love. She realizes that without love, she "will be nothing." This insight reveals the internal split developing within Maria-between her physical actions and her spiritual essence, between the practical woman earning money and the dreamer still yearning for connection.
Capítulo 7
Mastering the Profession: Insights into Human Nature
Over six months, Maria masters her profession, learning crucial tricks like pretending to have orgasms to ensure customer loyalty. She discovers the hierarchy of Geneva's prostitution world-women start at expensive clubs like Copacabana, then move to progressively cheaper establishments as they age. She's selective about clients based on their smell rather than age or appearance. Maria realizes many clients (one in five) simply want to talk about their problems rather than have sex. Recognizing this emotional need, she begins studying psychology, marital problems, and finance to better serve her clients.
She builds a loyal, select clientele, earning both envy and admiration from colleagues. She observes that all men who visit the club share one trait: fear-fear of their wives, fear of sexual failure, fear of women. Despite their outward confidence, they're terrified of judgment. To avoid embarrassing them, Maria puts men at ease, sometimes avoiding intercourse altogether. She realizes the absurdity that the world revolves around eleven minutes of sex per day, driving marriage, family, and an entire industry of cosmetics and pornography. Despite her insights, Maria focuses on her goal: saving money, returning to Brazil, buying a farm, and eventually finding true love.
In her diary, Maria reflects deeply on love and freedom. She writes that contrary to her previous belief that love is "voluntary enslavement," true freedom only exists when love is present. "The person who gives him or herself wholly, the person who feels freest, is the person who loves most wholeheartedly." She acknowledges that despite her experiences, nothing makes sense without love. Maria concludes that in love, no one can harm another-each person is responsible for their own feelings. Her most profound realization is that "no one loses anyone, because no one owns anyone," which she calls "the true experience of freedom: having the most important thing in the world without owning it."
With ninety days remaining until her planned return to Brazil, Maria reflects on how quickly yet slowly time has passed. Though tempted to continue her profitable work, she remembers the invisible woman's sad smile and knows there's "always a right moment to stop something." Her plans are clear: return to Brazil, buy a small farm with cows, invite her parents to live with her, and hire workers. Despite her philosophical views on love and freedom, she secretly desires revenge-she'll visit her hometown bank where her ex-boyfriend works, make a large deposit in Swiss francs, and pretend not to remember him while emphasizing her time in "SWIT-ZER-LAND."
What's fascinating about Maria's professional development is how it becomes a window into human nature. Through her clients, she gains insights into masculinity, vulnerability, and the human need for connection that might have taken decades to acquire in conventional circumstances. Her profession becomes an unexpected education-not just in sexuality, but in psychology, economics, and the hidden emotional lives of men. This represents one of the book's most nuanced perspectives: that wisdom can emerge from unlikely sources, and that even in circumstances we might consider degrading, profound learning remains possible.
Capítulo 8
The Transformative Encounter: Maria Meets Ralf Hart
Determined to learn about farming, Maria leaves the library and strolls through the city, discovering a small yellow plaque with a sun drawing and the inscription "Road to Santiago." Curious, she enters an expensive cafe to inquire about it. Though the waitress doesn't know its meaning, Maria orders coffee and attempts to study her farm management book. Finding it impossibly boring, she prepares to leave when a voice calls "Hang on a moment." She turns to see a long-haired young man kneeling with paintbrushes, working on a portrait of a gentleman.
The artist asks to paint her, claiming she has "a special light." Intrigued and flattered by the waitress's confirmation that he's "a very well-known artist" painting people who represent the city for the town hall, Maria sits by the window as instructed. The artist explains that the "Road to Santiago" is a medieval pilgrimage route to Spain, then begins sketching her in silence. As he works, Maria feels strangely vulnerable, sensing he sees beyond her exterior to her soul and fragility. When he mentions her "personal light," she inwardly dismisses the notion, believing herself ordinary. After finishing, he introduces himself as Ralf Hart and shows her the portrait-a face resembling hers but somehow stronger, filled with a light she doesn't recognize in herself.
Despite Maria's refusal, Ralf orders two more anisettes. Their conversation turns awkward when he asks what she does. She answers honestly-"I work in a nightclub"-feeling relieved at her newfound directness. When Ralf mentions he might have seen her before and inquires about her books, Maria shows him the farm management texts. He directly asks if she's a "sex worker," putting her on guard. She deflects with "Is that all men think about?" When he dismissively comments "Sex and farm management. How very dull," Maria feels defensive about her profession.
She retaliates by calling painting "a static thing... a dead thing that is no longer of any interest to anyone," beginning an intense exchange between two strangers whose paths have unexpectedly crossed. Maria boldly declares her profession when Ralf admits seeing her at Rue de Berne, proclaiming it as her "virtue" that she doesn't deceive herself or others. Rather than judging her, Ralf explains he saw a special "light" in her-the glow of willpower and sacrifice.
This encounter represents a turning point in Maria's journey. For the first time, she meets someone who sees beyond her professional identity to the essence of who she is. Ralf's ability to perceive her "light" challenges Maria's self-perception and reawakens parts of herself she had suppressed to survive. Their meeting isn't just romantic-it's revelatory, offering Maria a mirror that reflects not just who she is but who she could become. Haven't we all longed for someone who could see the best in us, especially when we've forgotten it ourselves?
Capítulo 9
The Awakening of Sacred Sexuality
As Maria's relationship with Ralf develops, she begins to explore dimensions of sexuality beyond the mechanical transactions of her profession. In her diary, she reflects on passion, describing how it "makes a person stop eating, sleeping, working, feeling at peace." She observes that people respond to passion in two ways: either keeping it under control to maintain their existing life structures (becoming "engineers of the superseded"), or surrendering blindly to it, making another person responsible for their happiness. She admits not knowing which approach is less destructive.
When Ralf finally returns to the Copacabana after three days, Maria realizes she's been waiting for him all along and accepts what fate has placed in her path. She feels comfortable embracing these feelings precisely because she knows this love is impossible and temporary. When they dance together, Maria notices his scent and touch, which she enjoys despite herself. After following the club's ritual for forty-five minutes, Ralf pays to spend the entire night with her, surprising Maria with his knowledge of the rules.
At Ralf's house, Maria refuses coffee and alcohol, maintaining professional distance despite her conflicting emotions. Ralf confesses he needs her because she has a "light" that he can't explain. Despite his successful career, good health and social opportunities, he feels profound loneliness-not the kind from being alone, but from being surrounded by people yet feeling empty. When he asks Maria to teach him something, she realizes she must have learned something from her many clients. She decides what they both need is an authentic exchange.
Maria walks home searching for that light-filled, wise woman she glimpsed by the fire. She had seen this woman once before by the lakeside when considering a life that wasn't hers, and again on Ralf's canvas. After walking some distance, the magical presence fades, leaving her alone again. She decides not to overthink the experience, trusting that if that other Maria truly exists, she'll return when the time is right.
In her diary, Maria writes about true desire being the desire for closeness. When desire remains pure, people fall in love with life itself, living reverently and consciously. She acknowledges falling in love with Ralf Hart despite knowing their relationship has no future. For the first time, she feels free precisely because she has nothing to lose. Though she recognizes their differences in education and background would eventually end their connection, she finds joy in no longer depending on external circumstances for happiness. Maria believes their meeting wasn't chance but planned by their souls when they both reached emotional limits requiring rebirth.
Through her relationship with Ralf, Maria begins to discover what might be called sacred sexuality-a dimension of physical intimacy that transcends mere pleasure to become a vehicle for spiritual connection. This represents a profound transformation from her professional experiences, where sex was reduced to a timed transaction. With Ralf, sex becomes a language through which souls communicate, a path to vulnerability and authenticity that Maria had never imagined possible.
Capítulo 10
The Final Choice: Risk Everything for Love
Maria's journey culminates in a moment of decision that brings her full circle to the fairy-tale dreams of her childhood. She waits at the airport for four hours, expecting Ralf to appear dramatically like in the movies, where the man races to stop the woman from boarding the plane. She reflects cynically on how films never show what happens after "The End" appears-the mundane realities of marriage, cooking, children, infidelity, and disappointment.
After boarding her flight to Paris, she still imagines him appearing at the last moment, but nothing happens. During her layover in Paris, she considers spending a day there to take photographs and process her memories, but learns her ticket doesn't allow for stopovers.
Then, as she exits through security, she hears a voice quoting "We'll always have Paris" from Casablanca. It's Ralf, holding roses, his eyes full of light. He explains that he saw her at Geneva airport but chose this romantic gesture instead-taking an earlier flight to surprise her. He waited three hours just to create this perfect movie moment.
Despite knowing little about him-they'd made love for the first time only hours before, he'd been married twice-Maria decides to take the risk. She kisses him, "utterly indifferent now to what happens after the words 'The End' appear on the cinema screen." If someone should tell her story someday, she would ask them to begin it like all fairy tales: "Once upon a time..."
Maria's final choice represents the completion of her journey from innocence through experience to a new kind of wisdom. She began as a naive girl with fairy-tale dreams, passed through disillusionment and pragmatism as a sex worker, and emerges capable of embracing love despite-or perhaps because of-her awareness of its risks. She no longer needs the guarantee of a happy ending to choose love; she has learned that the value lies in the choice itself, in the courage to remain open to possibility despite past disappointments.
What makes Maria's story so compelling is how it challenges our assumptions about innocence and experience. Her time as a prostitute, rather than corrupting her capacity for love, paradoxically preserves it by keeping her emotional core separate from her physical transactions. Meanwhile, her relationship with Ralf, though beginning in the context of her profession, awakens precisely the parts of herself she had protected from her clients. In the end, Maria discovers that true intimacy requires both the vulnerability of innocence and the wisdom of experience-a integration that allows her to step into love with eyes wide open, fully aware of its risks yet willing to embrace them anyway.