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The Joy of Falling Down and Getting Back Up Again
In a crowded New York City chess club, I sit down to a match with elevated heartbeat and churning stomach. My opponent and I shake hands, and I try projecting menace while channeling what Dylan Loeb McClain described from his match against world champion Garry Kasparov-that feeling of psychic ferocity. My intimidation tactics falter when a woman appears with chocolate milk for my opponent Ryan-who is eight years old. With admirable composure, he dispatches me after thirty moves. This humbling experience at the Marshall Chess Club was part of my journey into beginnerdom-a deliberate choice to learn chess alongside my daughter, who eventually surpassed me despite our four-decade age gap. Tom Vanderbilt's "Beginners" has struck a cultural nerve in our achievement-obsessed society, becoming a surprise bestseller and celebrity favorite (Reese Witherspoon selected it for her book club). The book's appeal lies in its radical proposition: that learning new skills as an adult isn't just possible but transformative-not because you'll master them, but because the very act of being a beginner again can reignite joy, curiosity, and neural pathways you thought were long closed.
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The Courage to Begin Again
When my daughter began competing in scholastic chess tournaments, I'd chat with other parents and ask if they played chess themselves. Most would respond with apologetic shrugs. When I mentioned I was learning to play, their tone would become cheerily patronizing. This disconnect puzzled me-if chess was so beneficial for children's development, why were adults avoiding it? I noticed parents staring into smartphones while children participated. Were we subtly teaching that learning was only for the young?
As I supervised my daughter's growing list of activities-piano, soccer, coding, climbing-I began to wonder: what new skills had I learned? While I constantly acquired declarative knowledge ("knowing that") as a journalist, I realized I'd neglected procedural knowledge ("knowing how"). This hit home during my daughter's school "Talent Day" when I struggled to identify a skill I could demonstrate.
I decided to learn multiple new skills alongside my daughter. They had to be completely new to me, available in New York City, not excessively difficult or time-consuming, and genuinely interesting rather than merely practical. I wanted substantial skills I'd never finish learning, not quick "micromastery" projects or bucket-list items. Beyond chess, I chose singing, surfing, drawing, making (specifically a wedding ring), and juggling.
No one is born a master. We are all, at some point, beginners. And beginners get labeled: "kooks" in surfing, "freds" in cycling, "patzers" in chess, "boots" in the military. Beginners make predictable mistakes and get hurt more often-they're the ones fainting in races, suffering snowboarding injuries, and having skydiving accidents at twelve times the rate of experienced jumpers.
Yet there's magic in the beginner stage. Like new love, your brain exists in an "extreme neurobiological state," hyperaware and bathed in novelty. You're freed from impostor syndrome because no one expects you to be good. Your mind, as Zen Buddhism describes it, is "ready for anything, open to everything." In these early stages, you make dramatic progress-the steepest part of the learning curve-that you'll never experience again.
While expertise brings efficiency and refined skills, beginners sometimes possess advantages. The Dunning-Kruger effect shows that complete novices often overestimate their abilities, but interestingly, the most errors often occur not at the very beginning but after gaining a little knowledge. Experts can become trapped by their knowledge. Chess masters sometimes fixate on familiar moves while missing better options elsewhere on the board. London taxi drivers, despite their navigational prowess, struggle when familiar areas are modified-their "overlearned" mental maps become obstacles.
Being a beginner gets harder with age. Children are natural beginners-it's practically their job-while adults face "stereotype threats" suggesting it's too late to learn. The science confirms some disadvantages: our brains lose neurons (one per second from age twenty), show less efficient activation patterns, and struggle with modulation as we age. Studies show older novices take twice as long to learn new skills. Yet we retain plasticity-that superpower-like ability for the brain to change.
Learning new skills isn't just for career advancement-it's vital for brain health and personal growth. Studies show that learning multiple new skills simultaneously can roll back cognitive aging by decades. The benefits extend beyond the specific skill: swimming lessons improve reading and math; chess enhances problem-solving. Learning creates "self-expansion," introducing you to new people and perspectives while changing how you perceive the world.
We live in a golden age of learning with unprecedented access to information. Online platforms like Khan Academy, Coursera, and Skillshare offer free or affordable instruction on virtually anything. Though many claim they lack time, most people have as much leisure time as ever-it's just consumed by smartphones. Parents can transform potential scheduling conflicts into opportunities by learning alongside their children, reversing traditional roles as the child becomes the teacher.
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Learning from Our Ultimate Teachers: Babies
As I readied to plunge into beginnerdom, I sought inspiration from the ultimate beginners: infants. At NYU's Infant Action Lab, I watched fifteen-month-old Lily navigate with a weighted snowsuit, part of research into how babies adapt to challenges.
Karen Adolph, the lab's director, has discovered fascinating patterns: toddlers travel eight football fields daily, taking 2,400 steps-more than most American adults. They walk in 160 separate bouts hourly, often carrying objects despite the difficulty. Contrary to assumptions, babies rarely walk directly toward goals-mobility itself seems rewarding. They fall constantly (seventeen times hourly for experienced walkers, thirty for novices), but are perfectly designed for it with their bouncy, padded bodies. Unlike adults, they receive no negative feedback for errors, creating an ideal learning environment where failure is simply part of the process.
Why would expert crawlers abandon their stable, mastered skill for precarious upright movement? Despite constant falling, walking immediately pays off-babies move three times faster in their first week of walking than after twenty-one weeks of crawling. Walking frees their hands, improves their vision beyond the ground, and grants them social agency. Parents even speak differently to walking infants, though they do say "no" more often.
Walking skill correlates more with experience than age-it's about accumulating steps, not months. Contrary to older theories, walking isn't just a neurological milestone that happens automatically-babies actively learn to walk, influenced by environment and culture.
Infants aren't just learning skills; they're "learning to learn." Yet surprisingly, when babies transition from crawling to walking, they don't transfer their knowledge about dangers like steep slopes. New walkers will confidently plunge down declines that they cautiously avoided as crawlers. This happens because walking represents an entirely different "problem space" with new muscles, movements, and perspectives.
Babies live in a constantly changing world, requiring flexible learning. They don't dwell on mistakes-after falling down stairs and visiting the emergency room, one baby immediately plunged down steep slopes in Adolph's lab. The ultimate beginner's creed: If you don't learn to fail, you'll fail to learn.
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Rediscovering Our Voice: The Journey to Singing Again
When was the last time you sang? Probably not long ago-in the shower, while walking, or most commonly, in your car. Our compulsion to sing seems evolutionarily strange yet deeply ingrained. Steven Mithen suggests that singing predated language as a way to communicate emotions and forge social bonds. This explains why singing provides numerous health benefits: boosting immune function, endorphins, oxytocin, and improving respiratory function.
The human capacity for singing appears "embedded in the human genome." We instinctively sing to infants in a special way-using higher pitches that babies prefer-and infants actually prefer singing to speech. This primal connection becomes evident when new parents spontaneously sing to their babies without instruction, accessing "this back channel to the heart."
As a new father, I found myself singing lullabies to my daughter, feeling as if I were "dusting off some vestigial skill." Being a beginner gave me freedom-I didn't need perfection when singing to my eight-pound audience. Though not considering myself particularly musical, I enjoyed casual singing around the house. My wife noted I had a "nice voice" that worked best when I wasn't self-conscious. This made me wonder: what would happen if I approached singing more purposefully?
I decided I needed a teacher. While countless books offer vocal instruction, they lack crucial feedback. A fortuitous discovery came while reading about actor Ethan Hawke, who had taken intensive singing lessons in Brooklyn to prepare for his role as jazz trumpeter Chet Baker in "Born to Be Blue." As a longtime Baker fan, this seemed like kismet.
I found Hawke's teacher, Danielle Amedeo, whose website promised "Beginners Welcome." Meeting at a cafe, she reassured me about my nervous concerns: Was I too old? What if I couldn't hit notes? She explained that singing isn't a fixed feature like eye color but a skill that can be learned through proper technique. Despite being nearly fifty, she insisted I was using only a fraction of my voice's potential.
Why are so many of us mediocre singers? Steven Demorest's research reveals a striking pattern: children show clear singing improvement from kindergarten to sixth grade, but college students test at kindergarten levels. Most simply stop singing regularly after elementary school.
Early in childhood, kids sing constantly-in preschool performances, assemblies, and at home. But as they age, they develop a "musical self-concept," categorizing themselves as either having talent or not. Crucially, research shows little relationship between children's perception of their singing ability and their actual skill, yet this self-perception strongly influences future musical participation.
Children come to view musical ability as innate rather than developed. We say someone "has" a good voice rather than acknowledging they worked to develop it. Most who claim to be "tone-deaf" aren't-congenital amusia is extremely rare. The real issue isn't perceiving correct notes but producing them. Singing is primarily a motor skill requiring muscle coordination, no different from archery or playing an instrument.
Learning to sing wasn't what I expected. Rather than simply practicing songs and receiving feedback, I first needed basic tuning of my instrument-my voice. Danielle stripped away decades of bad habits by having me start with simple exercises. Instead of struggling with "Time After Time," we made childlike sounds-lip trills, canonical babbling, whoops and sighs.
My tongue-"the worst enemy of the singer"-received careful attention. A lifetime of speaking creates habits that impede singing: hunched shoulders, jutting chin, constricted throat, clenched jaw, and tense tongue. I needed to move air fast and free, focusing on vowels rather than consonants.
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Finding Harmony: The Power of Learning Together
Every Monday evening, I travel to the Clemente Soto Velez Cultural Center on Manhattan's Lower East Side, climbing to room 203 where the Britpop Choir rehearses. Under the direction of Charlie Adams-a New Yorker raised in London-some fifty members gather to perform music from British artists like Oasis, Adele, and David Bowie.
The ninety-minute sessions work a kind of alchemy. People arrive subdued after work, but after warm-ups-body shakes, facial contortions, lip trills that sound like "mutant sparrows"-the energy transforms completely. Something magical happens as individual voices merge into a pulsating whole, creating moments of transcendence. As composer Alice Parker described it, "It's as if all of our inner ions have been scheduled to be moving in the same direction at the same time."
What makes this "chorus effect" so powerful isn't perfection but rather our human tendency to stray slightly from perfect pitch. These variations-called flutter and wow-create an enchanting "quasi-random" sound richer than any single voice could produce. When the blend is right and no individual singer stands out, listeners experience a sound that seems to come from everywhere and nowhere at once.
Singing in groups is a worldwide phenomenon with deep cultural roots. The appeal is universal because group singing offers profound benefits beyond mere enjoyment. Research shows choir singing increases happiness, boosts oxytocin, reduces cortisol, and even alleviates physical pain. It engages more brain regions than solo singing and provides therapeutic benefits for various populations-from mental health patients to hurricane survivors.
The secret lies in singing's power as "social glue." The Britpop Choir's fifty-person size mirrors the optimal group size of our hunter-gatherer ancestors-large enough for social cohesion but too large for one-on-one grooming. Singing creates "synchrony"-people breathing together, working in harmony, even synchronizing heartbeats-that bonds people faster than other social activities.
Getting to know my fellow choristers revealed common themes: many joined during life transitions. Roger returned to singing after a breakup; Sarah missed the regular rehearsals of her accordion orchestra after its conductor died; Laurence found refuge from marital troubles. Adrian, a soccer coach with a brain tumor, joined on his speech therapist's recommendation after discovering he could sing even when he couldn't speak following brain surgery.
Despite my growing confidence in choir, I often felt like an imposter-an anthropologist mimicking a strange culture without truly understanding it. Choir singing presented unique challenges different from my voice lessons. While Danielle encouraged vibrato and individual expression, Charlie needed blended voices without distracting flourishes. The two activities required completely different skills-voice lessons were like practicing penalty kicks, while choir was like being thrust into a live soccer match.
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Riding the U-Shaped Learning Curve
My surfing journey revealed the challenging reality of being a beginner. On the board, I struggled to follow fundamental rules while consuming all my mental bandwidth just trying to execute them. To advance to the "advanced beginner" stage, I needed to incorporate situational awareness-particularly difficult in surfing where conditions constantly change.
Unlike snowboarding's relatively static environment, surfing requires balancing on an ever-shifting surface while timing a perfect pop-up. The ocean's unpredictable energy creates a learning environment where you must adapt instantly or lose your opportunity. As one surfer told Peter Heller, surfing isn't something you pick up quickly-it's a "life path."
I cherished my weekly Rockaway outings, driving against commuter traffic while practicing choir vocals. Though finding consistent surf partners proved difficult, I came to relish the solitude-just me and the sea. Facing the endless horizon, freed from technology, my mind could expand into that empty space. Surfing became meditation by other means, with studies showing its therapeutic benefits for various populations.
The U-shaped learning curve is a fascinating and virtually inevitable part of skill development. It manifests in various ways across different domains. In chess, a player's rating typically rises quickly at first, as beginners mainly compete on who makes fewer blunders. Basic strategy goes a long way initially. But then you start facing players who know those same tactics, and your rating plummets. The expert beginner suddenly becomes the intermediate novice.
Children's language development shows this pattern too. Young children often use correct verb forms through imitation before understanding grammar rules. As they learn rules, they begin "overgeneralizing" them-saying "speaked" instead of "spoke." Similarly, experiments show children who correctly understand that mixing equal-temperature water yields the same temperature later make mistakes when they learn addition, erroneously believing the temperatures should be added.
In the Dreyfus model of skill acquisition, novices operate in a world of rigid rules. Advancing to "advanced beginner" requires not just knowing rules but understanding when to apply them-or when no rule seems applicable. This transition often involves temporary regression.
My Portugal surfing experience illustrated this perfectly. Despite my Rockaway experience, I failed completely at a new break with unfamiliar conditions. The instructor showed me a "two-step pop-up" method that worked temporarily but wasn't proper technique. This highlighted an important distinction: doing well momentarily isn't the same as learning properly.
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The Science Behind Skill Acquisition
After months of struggling with various skills, I decided to study how we actually learn skills by learning juggling-a nearly pure motor skill with little practical purpose beyond demonstration. Juggling has long been used by researchers to study human performance and learning curves because it's laboratory-friendly, challenging but achievable, easily measurable, and motivating.
I found Heather Wolf, who ran JuggleFit in New York City. A former bassist for Ringling Bros. Circus, she learned juggling while touring and now taught others. Her approach was practical and beginner-friendly. She started me with scarves to slow down the process, having me throw them to imaginary corners of a box above my head. Her key insight: "The key to learning juggling is not thinking."
Most people can ride bicycles but can't explain how they do it. Ask a rider how to turn, and they'll say "turn the handlebars in the direction you want to go." Yet this is technically wrong-to turn left, you first steer right. We don't know this because awareness would actually hinder performance.
What makes skills truly skillful is that we don't consciously know how we perform them. Knowledge only helps "when it descends into habits," as Jerome Bruner wrote. Beginners struggle because they're constantly thinking about themselves performing the skill rather than just doing it. This "reinvestment" theory, proposed by motor-learning expert Rich Masters, explains why stroke patients relearning to walk often develop mechanical gaits-they're overthinking something that should be automatic.
I discovered juggling wasn't what I'd imagined. Rather than the "shower pattern" where objects travel in a semicircle, beginners learn the "cascade" where objects cross in a figure-eight pattern. And contrary to my expectations, jugglers don't visually track each object-they focus on the apex of the throws and perceive the balls peripherally. Studies confirm jugglers can perform with most of their vision blocked except for a thin slice at the throwing arc's peak.
As I practiced with Wolf, I experienced a common perception: juggling seemed to slow down over time. Neuroscientist David Eagleman explains that novices pay attention to everything, making time seem to rush by. As we improve, we develop expectations and focus only on what matters, creating the sensation that time moves more slowly.
Learning to juggle physically changes your brain-not by expanding it, but by reshuffling its internal architecture. Studies show that juggling alters both gray matter (processing centers) and white matter (neural connections) in as little as a week. These changes occur primarily in the visual cortex rather than the motor cortex, confirming that juggling is more about visual tracking than hand movement.
The brain responds more intensely to learning something new than practicing something familiar. Like high-intensity interval training, being a perpetual beginner repeatedly triggers this neural reshaping. The initial burst of gray matter density eventually declines as the brain becomes more efficient, using only what's necessary to perform the skill.
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Seeing the World Anew Through Drawing
Drawing, like singing, haunts us as a phantom skill we abandoned in childhood. While Google searches for "how to draw" rank surprisingly high among life's big questions, most of us stopped drawing when we hit what Howard Gardner calls "the doldrums of literalism"-that frustrating stage when children sacrifice raw expression for attempted realism without possessing the technical skills.
I decided to take up drawing again after decades, inspired partly by my daughter's boundless sketches covering our kitchen walls. Seeking structure beyond self-teaching, I enrolled in a five-day intensive workshop led by Brian Bomeisler, son of Betty Edwards who wrote the classic "Drawing on the Right Side of the Brain."
Children begin life as natural artists but gradually lose this ability as they grow. A fascinating study showed that five-year-olds and professional artists scored equally high on artistic expression, while everyone else fell into a U-shaped trough between them. Children eventually stop drawing what they feel and instead attempt to draw what they think something should look like.
The problem is that we don't actually draw what we see-we draw what we think we see. Despite staring at objects directly, we're influenced by mental symbols and concepts rather than reality. Our brains create perceptual shortcuts like "shape constancy" that make us see open doors as rectangles when they actually appear as trapezoids from certain angles.
During my workshop, my first self-portrait looked like "a mug shot sketch, if the suspect didn't actually dwell on this planet." Despite staring at myself for an hour, I violated every proportion rule-my face too wide and long, lips hanging perilously low like "a Mr. Potato Head clumsily arranged by a well-meaning toddler."
Drawing became the most absorbing activity I'd ever experienced-"meditation with benefits." Hours passed without my knowledge as I entered a deep state of flow. By the end of the workshop, my final self-portrait was dramatically improved. More importantly, drawing had permanently changed how I saw the world. I found myself stopping on streets to inspect subtle reflections or textures, seeing new layers of reality everywhere.
Stepping into the New York Academy of Art felt like entering a secret world. Founded in 1982 as a response to minimalist art education trends, the academy taught traditional drawing and painting skills to students who might otherwise "talk about conceptualism until they were blue in the face" but wouldn't understand basic brushwork.
My drawing journey began with private lessons from Michael Grimaldi, head of the academy's drawing department. He taught me to "deprogram biases"-like our tendency to make eyes too large and place them too high on faces. Rather than immediately drawing contours, Grimaldi taught me to start with an "envelope"-a geometric shape connecting the figure's furthermost points-followed by identifying "landmarks" and connecting them with straight lines. This architectural approach made me feel like the drawing was drawing itself, with the figure emerging naturally from calculations of angles and proportions.
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Creating Something Meaningful with Our Hands
After losing my second wedding ring in the Malibu surf, I decided to make my own replacement rather than simply buying another. This aligned with the "IKEA effect"-the tendency to value things more when we've had a hand in creating them. What better object to invest with such meaning than a wedding ring?
Through a neighborly connection, I enlisted renowned custom jeweler David Alan to help me. His workshop in Manhattan's Diamond District was a slice of old New York, with skilled craftspeople hunched over benches with head-mounted loupes. David lamented that "the trade of being a high-end bench jeweler is a dying trade" with few willing to properly apprentice anymore.
The design process for my wedding ring blended my beginner's naivety with David's expertise. When I suggested embedding chess piece shapes inside the ring-representing my wife (queen), myself (king), and daughter (bishop)-David initially doubted the feasibility but embraced the challenge. My beginner's questions had sparked something innovative: I didn't know what couldn't be done; David didn't immediately know how to do it but knew he could figure it out.
The actual crafting process revealed jewelry-making as a deeply physical skill. Working at David's bench-a personalized workspace with his 20-year-old wax blob and specially shaped bench pin-I learned to file, sand and polish the cast platinum ring. The work required tremendous precision and physical endurance. My fingers bled from sandpaper, my back ached, and I smelled metal on my hands at night. Through hours of repetitive work, I slowly developed the motor skills needed, experiencing the deep satisfaction that neuroscientist Kelly Lambert calls "effort-driven rewards"-the pleasure that comes when "physical effort produces something tangible."
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The Lifelong Path of Beginnership
This book is not about overnight success but about finding joy in the struggle of learning. I didn't win chess tournaments or become a professional singer, but achieved modest competency in activities that brought forgotten pleasure. Following John Stuart Mill's philosophy, I found happiness not as an end goal but through pursuits like drawing, which remained pleasurable despite not becoming a passion.
I question the notion of finding a single "passion," citing Carol Dweck's research that people with growth mindsets understand passions develop through challenge rather than magically appearing. In our frictionless age where process is obscured by results, I deliberately sought effort and struggle, valuing the journey of learning with all its pain and setbacks.
My mistakes-from cycling mishaps to awkward surfing moments-became valuable inflection points that pushed my boundaries and built empathy for other beginners. Beyond improving specific skills, the project reawakened my desire to learn, leading to numerous other firsts like marathons and snowboarding.
In the Bahamas, I discovered my swimming technique problems went beyond breathing. The coaches identified my main issue: I was kicking from my knees rather than my hips, creating serious drag. My daughter, with her "powerful kick" and "flexible ankles," easily outpaced me despite my soccer-conditioned legs.
Despite my struggles-including a bout of sunstroke that left me watching from the boat one day-I found the experience strangely exhilarating. Unlike cycling, where I obsessively tracked performance metrics, swimming offered a blank slate with no expectations. As Terry Laughlin notes, "A good, efficient swimming stroke is one of life's more complicated skills, far more difficult to perfect than the ideal golf swing or the picture-perfect tennis serve."
Swimming taught me several lessons: you can possess what you think is basic knowledge of something only to discover you don't understand it at all; learning comes from everywhere-teachers, people older and younger than you; once you take those first tentative steps in learning, your horizons dramatically expand; and most importantly, it's never too late to be a beginner. Patricia, the seventy-year-old who won the Golden Swim Cap, was not only swimming but exploring astronomy, quantum theory, and pickleball. As Seneca wrote, "It takes the whole of life to learn how to live."
