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    The Hidden Scorekeeper: How CPTSD Sabotages Love

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    16 feb 2026

    Explore how complex trauma rewires the brain to obsessively track relationship disappointments while filtering out love and care, creating a devastating cycle that convinces trauma survivors they're unloved despite evidence to the contrary.

    The Hidden Scorekeeper: How CPTSD Sabotages Love

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    When someone's keeping score due to CPTSD, they're not sitting there thinking, 'How can I hurt my partner today?' They're genuinely experiencing terror about being abandoned or rejected, and their brain is desperately trying to gather evidence to either confirm or deny that fear.

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    CPTSD and how they see partners mistakes and keep score of the bad things their partner has done and forget the good thereby convincing themselves that their partner doesn't love them

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    Fonti di conoscenza
    CPTSD and Relationships: Why Conflict Happens and What To Do
    link
    https://psychcentral.com/ptsd/c-ptsd-and-interpersonal-relationships
    Stop Walking on Eggshells
    Complex PTSD and Romantic Relationships: How Trauma Impacts
    link
    https://goodhealthpsych.com/blog/complex-ptsd-and-romantic-relationships-how-trauma-impacts/
    The Overthinking In Relationships Fix
    Complex PTSD and relationships: Effects, triggers, and more
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    https://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/complex-ptsd-triggers-in-relationships
    Mother Hunger

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    1

    Opening and Introduction: The Hidden Scorekeeper in Love

    0:00
    0:14
    0:32
    2

    Setting the Stage: Understanding the Trauma-Tinted Lens

    0:48
    1:06
    1:28
    1:37
    1:55
    2:05
    3

    The Neurobiology of Negative Bias

    2:19
    2:35
    2:50
    1:37
    3:11
    1:06
    3:39
    3:53
    4

    The Memory Distortion Effect

    4:09
    4:23
    4:46
    4:55
    5:14
    1:37
    5:37
    1:06
    5

    The Emotional Dysregulation Spiral

    6:09
    6:22
    6:40
    1:37
    7:14
    1:06
    7:38
    7:47
    6

    The Trust and Intimacy Paradox

    8:03
    8:20
    8:38
    1:37
    9:07
    9:20
    9:31
    1:06
    7

    The Abandonment Terror Connection

    9:55
    10:09
    10:28
    1:37
    10:53
    10:59
    11:09
    1:06
    11:37
    1:37
    8

    The Splitting Phenomenon

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    2:35
    12:30
    1:37
    12:55
    1:06
    13:20
    1:37
    9

    The Hypervigilance Trap

    13:45
    13:58
    14:19
    1:06
    14:42
    1:37
    15:06
    1:06
    15:26
    7:47
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    Breaking the Cycle: Awareness and Healing

    15:54
    16:08
    16:26
    1:06
    16:45
    16:51
    17:08
    17:13
    17:29
    17:45
    11

    Practical Strategies for Daily Life

    17:58
    18:09
    18:26
    1:06
    18:48
    18:54
    19:11
    19:22
    19:34
    19:40
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    The Ripple Effects: How Healing Transforms Relationships

    19:55
    20:09
    20:23
    20:25
    20:40
    1:06
    20:58
    21:05
    21:17
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    Closing Reflections: The Path Forward

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