Explore how complex trauma rewires the brain to obsessively track relationship disappointments while filtering out love and care, creating a devastating cycle that convinces trauma survivors they're unloved despite evidence to the contrary.

When someone's keeping score due to CPTSD, they're not sitting there thinking, 'How can I hurt my partner today?' They're genuinely experiencing terror about being abandoned or rejected, and their brain is desperately trying to gather evidence to either confirm or deny that fear.
CPTSD and how they see partners mistakes and keep score of the bad things their partner has done and forget the good thereby convincing themselves that their partner doesn't love them


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Lena: Hey everyone, welcome back to another personalized episode from BeFreed! I'm Lena, and I'm here with my co-host Eli, and we are absolutely thrilled to dive into something that hits so close to home for so many people dealing with complex trauma.
Eli: That's right, Lena! And you know what? I'm genuinely excited about today's conversation because we're exploring something that doesn't get talked about enough-how complex PTSD can turn our minds into these relentless scorekeepers in relationships. It's like having this internal accountant who only tracks the debits and completely ignores the credits, you know?
Lena: Oh, that's such a perfect way to put it! And what makes this even more important is that people with CPTSD often have no idea they're doing this. They're convinced their partner doesn't love them, but really, their traumatized brain is just filtering out all the evidence to the contrary.